Wednesday, May 16, 2007


As I stood at the kitchen counter while Darren hurriedly packed himself a lunch this morning, he asked me, "Are all the kids still sleeping?"

"Of course not," I answered somewhat irritably, as the sound of their feet pounding through the living room hastened to meet my tired ears. "They know the instant I'm awake. Even if I were to get up at 4:00 every morning, they'd be up, too."

After a few quick good-bye kisses and hugs for Daddy, Dylan settled himself at the kitchen counter with a pen and stack of fresh paper, humming happily to himself as he began working on another new book.

Meghan, mercifully, was still asleep in my bed, and Caitlyn, shivering, crawled under the covers beside her. "Mommy?" she asked me. "Will you lay down with me, too?" And so I, too, got back into bed, and Caitlyn happily settled herself against the curve of my warm body. But for a moment, though my body was at rest, my mind still raced with thoughts of all that I "should" be doing.

"I should be making beds," I admonished myself.

"I should be sorting laundry."

"I should be checking that online summer recreation schedule I meant to look up yesterday."

"I should be emptying the dishwasher."

Finally, I heard the selfishness of my own thoughts, and, shushing my mind and shooing away every last remnant of those "should be's", I snuggled down deeper into the covers and did exactly what I really should have doing all along: savoring the feel of my daughter's soft mass of curls beneath my hand; inhaling the sweet scent of her soft baby skin; steadying myself with the rhythm of her deep, even respirations. After a few minutes of quietly rubbing her back, Caitlyn was asleep again, but I resisted the temptation to get immediately back out of bed to tackle all those things I thought I should be doing.

Because sometimes, it's best to just be.


Mom to Four said...

So well said! I am so guilty of the same things. Thanks for that pause to renew my perspective!


He who wears the most black wins. said...

Here, here! Beautifully said, Melissa, and thank you for the reminder today. It is so important and yet we so rarely let ourselves indulge and relish just "being". --which, after all, is all our children want from us most of the time anyway.

Much love to you this day and a BIG congratulations on Darren's great new job!! That is so wonderful!

Jill said...

So true, and amazingly it can often be difficult. Thanks for the lovely post.

Mrs Jackie Parkes MJ said...

Yes the practice of the present moment! Wonderful!

God bless