Thursday, January 31, 2008

Back for good

My children are being so very considerate of their poor tired mommy this morning. I went to a 5:30 meeting at work last night and ended up staying to help until after midnight because they were just so busy. It was crazy there, much more chaotic than I've seen it in a very long while. I was glad to help...and time and a half pay is always nice, too. :) But having had no nap yesterday, I am seriously dragging this morning. Dylan and Caitlyn were apparently up before Darren left for work at around 6:20 this morning, but Meghan and I slept in together until 8:00! During that time I was vaguely aware of the sound of our big dress-up box being dragged out of the front closet and rummaged through while PBS Kids played quietly in the background. Caitlyn finally came to me when she needed help with a too-small costume, and Dylan seized the opportunity for some snuggle time with me in the "big bed", which in turn woke Meggie, who was all smiles and laughter the moment she opened her eyes. What a nice way to ease into the day!

And I'm just feeling so much better in general. Receiving such wonderfully warm comments (as well as some really sweet phone calls!) in response to my last post was tremendously helpful. Thank you, all of you, so much! Really. You all are amazing. I feel so much better just knowing that I am not alone in my frustrations, that others are feeling or going through many of the same things as I am. I feel much more optimistic now, too, about many of the things with which I was struggling...and wow, I honestly don't mean to sound so cryptic or mysterious but seriously, they felt like such personal things that it just didn't seem right to share them here. Suffice it to say that I am much happier now, and more at peace, than I have been these past few weeks. I'm feeling much more goal oriented, too, which always helps. There are few things I hate more than feeling like I am just trudging aimlessly through my days. I do ever so much better when I have a sense of direction or purpose to work towards. And I imagine that's probably true for all of us, but sometimes I forget. With renewed optimism and focused plans for my immediate future, though, I feel as though the dark and heavy clouds have lifted and I am finally able to see clearly again. I'm nearly blinded by the brilliance of the light.


angie said...

I'm so glad you're back. I come here for my warm fuzzies and inspiration to be the best mom I can be. You are awesome, and I'm so happy that you're feeling better.

Ruby said...

Good to have you back... Take care. God Bless... Ruby