Now that I've had a few days to get my mind around the idea of another little girl! in our family, I've begun to fully embrace the sweetness and beauty her presence will bring to our lives. But I have to say (because I'm all about keeping it real here) that when we first found out? I sort of felt gut punched. A girl. But we already have two of those! I'll admit now that I had been secretly (or maybe not so secretly) hoping for another little boy, a baby of the rough and tumble sort to be a playmate and companion to Dylan.
His own disappointment at the news of another sister was clearly visible on his sad, stoic face, and I remembered the bitter tears of resentment I cried when my own little brother was born when I was six. I had been so hoping for a sister! It wasn't fair! I didn't need another brother! But God, in His infinite wisdom, knew far better than me what I actually needed, and the baby boy I bewailed all those years ago grew with time into a fine young man who is now the godfather of my own sweet son. (And really, he was a much better friend to me than any sister would have been.)
Now again, God has proved His goodness in the miracle of this small, sweet girl, a baby already much loved by her sisters and brother and mommy and daddy. I can't imagine now that I ever wanted another boy! Three little girls! What a joy and a blessing! My heart smiles to imagine them all together as they grow older.
And my little man? I'm not so much worried about him anymore. He's got a heart so big that it's already recovered and embraced the reality of another little sister. And far from having the presence of other boys in his life, he is surrounded by strong, positive male influences in the forms of his daddy, his grandpa, his uncles, his priests, his CCD teacher...and playmates including his cousins, his friends from CCD, the nice home schooled boy down the street, the ever so polite and imaginative son of my friend, and, as he grows, I know there will be many more. And tell me: if this picture he drew yesterday is credible evidence, wouldn't you agree that he is definitely a boy quite secure in his status as reigning knight in this household? :)