I took these photos a couple of days ago and then realized they're nearly identical to some I took at this same time last year. Spring, it seems, has arrived. This year, though, my heart's just not so into it; I'd have missed these blooms entirely, in fact, had sweet Meghan not pointed them out to me. I'm still "seeking to find balance, order, and harmony", but this year, they just seem impossibly elusive. For the sake of my family, I hope this dreadful gloom passes soon. I know they're eager for their cheerful wife and mommy to return from the depths of this joy draining pit. I'm immersing myself today in my usual quick fixes: bible study with the children, a really fun and uplifting CD from my darling sister-in-law, backyard play and exploration after lunch (unless it gets too windy, which will only serve to worsen my mood), perhaps a movie with my hubby once the children are in bed...I know I'll be okay because these are all things which still bring me joy. Even in the darkest moments, it would be impossible to lose sight of how very blessed I am.