Thursday, March 05, 2009

Spring

I took these photos a couple of days ago and then realized they're nearly identical to some I took at this same time last year. Spring, it seems, has arrived. This year, though, my heart's just not so into it; I'd have missed these blooms entirely, in fact, had sweet Meghan not pointed them out to me. I'm still "seeking to find balance, order, and harmony", but this year, they just seem impossibly elusive. For the sake of my family, I hope this dreadful gloom passes soon. I know they're eager for their cheerful wife and mommy to return from the depths of this joy draining pit. I'm immersing myself today in my usual quick fixes: bible study with the children, a really fun and uplifting CD from my darling sister-in-law, backyard play and exploration after lunch (unless it gets too windy, which will only serve to worsen my mood), perhaps a movie with my hubby once the children are in bed...I know I'll be okay because these are all things which still bring me joy. Even in the darkest moments, it would be impossible to lose sight of how very blessed I am.








6 comments:

Jennifer said...

I now what you mean liss. My day is not going too well either. My mom went to heaven 8 years ago today.:( Things will hopefully get better soon.

Jamie said...

OH, prayers for you Melissa and for Jennifer too!

I am jealous again of your beautiful early spring, how wonderful!! You would not survive in MN, it's gloomy, gloomy and cold! Our spring blooms do not come until May!!

Frances said...

Praying with Psalm 51:10-12 that the Lord would quickly restore to you the joy of salvation and put a new and right spirit within you. :)

Blair said...

(((Hugs))) from Texas! I hope the beautiful buds brought some smiles to your day and I hope the weekend brings some new joy to your heart!

Jill said...

Thinking of you!

Jessica said...

Oh! She is such a cutie!!

I will be keeping you in my prayers. I know what you mean, and I've felt that way a lot this year too (since my miscarriage in Nov). It is great that you are able to recognize it and focus on the things that make you happy. {{{hugs}}}