What began on a whim last summer as a sort of personal online diary has, much to my happy surprise, evolved into a forum in which I have been blessed to meet some really incredible, like minded, faith-filled moms, women who have greatly uplifted and inspired and touched me in ways too numerous to count. But I fear that these past two weeks, surrounded by everyone I love most in this world, may have forever altered the course of this blog.
As I celebrated Christmas with Darren and our children...as I sat with my beloved and watched our beautiful and amazing offspring play together, laugh together, fight together...as I snuggled on piles of quilts with my precious family in front of a crackling fire--I realized just how much I treasure my time with them, unhurried and uncomplicated time spent just being together. That warm, loving feeling has remained with me, enveloped me, and now, every time I think I might try to blog, I feel like an exhibitionist, betraying the private intimacies of my family life. And so I sit and stare at the computer screen, feeling guilty for not blogging, but feeling even more guilty for blogging.
So, as I begin this new year, planning and prioritizing, I'm also re-evaluating the direction I want this blog to take. I see big changes in the year ahead for my family: I will turn 30 this summer. 30!!! And, God willing, we would love to welcome a new little one this year (it is a fervent prayer in all of our hearts, especially Dylan's and Caitlyn's!). Darren is considering a career change, which may or may not involve a move for us. And, one way or another, Dylan will be starting kindergarten this fall. (It's looking more and more like we will be homeschooling.) I'd really love to share all of this--the highs, the lows--here, with you, my online friends. But for now? I think a bit of a blogging break is in order, at least for a while. "Normal" is so hard to get back to, particularly when it follows such a gloriously wonderful time spent with those I hold most dear (Darren started back to work just yesterday. I guess we're all still just a little out of sorts).
I wish you all a very happy New Year, and look forward to "visiting" with you again in the (hopefully!) near future!